oh my GOD!! its PORN

Heart was beating like a drum, i was not sure what to do with it, my hands shivered and eyes where scanning the surroundings. Oh my GOD!!! its porn. 

After a long pleading and crying we had a desktop pc in our home, my elder brother had greater control over it as it was bought more for his purpose then mine, but i had my own quality time with it. Desktop at those times were considered as a wealth icon, and as kids we used to make stories about it tell our friends, everyone will be thrilled and wonderstruk when i finish my cooked up computer stories. But in reality we did not had any internet connection and computer was used only to play some flash games and watch some videos, even then i was always asked to stay away from the computer by my brother, as a RESPONSIBLE sibling i was always interested in finding his faults and presenting it to my mother, and for that reason we were always fighting, hmm... good memories of those times, On one fine day every one was out especially my BRO, only grandmother and myself where there, without wasting any time, i switched on the computer and started sneaking into the files which he has saved, there was a lot of installer files and songs. But something inside me was telling me to keep on digging files, maybe its my "responsible" nature which pushed me to look deep into folders. While searching i found a folder which was having a 'new folder' and my powerpoint and word files which were new and nothing written in it. now this is something to check. I started to dig into it, folder after folder somewhere down i finally found three video files, 

"MILK SHAKE" that was the name of the video file and i was not at all expecting what i was about to see. Let me tell you this was my first experience with porn and the maximum nudity i ever saw till then was navel of actresses during the dance sequence, even that was rare as my mother used to switch channels when something like that came up, so according to me my life was going to whole new dimension of nudity after i saw that video.

Without much hesitation i clicked on the video and it started playing, nice start to the video a young and beautiful girl was smiling and she was acting shy while the camera man was teasing her and touching her here and there, I had my own doubts, it was not like any other videos which i seen in computer or on cd, it was not having that filmy touch, rather it was having the effect of indian tv serial while watching. Then her name came on the screen , i dont remember her name but she was so damn good looking and cute, You see maybe because i was nearing puberty, i was feeling something odd with that girl, not odd in a bad way, but in a very pleasant way. 

All of a sudden she started licking the fingers of the cameraman, and she seems to enjoy it, i found it very gross, as that person was having full hair on his fingers and it looked kind of dirty, she kept on doing that and suddenly a person entered into the room, not my room, the room in the video where the girl was having fun, a big white man with huge muscles and a black cooling glass. he was also smiling towards the cameraman and cameraman told something back to him and his smile turned to laughter. The video was getting interesting , the big man sat next to her and started smiling at her, she stopped sucking the fingers of the cameraman and planted a big smile on her face, the big man was talking to her and her reply was only "Hmm....Hm..Hm...Hmmmm...". 

Suddenly, something happened, the big man kissed the girl on her lips, usually in indian cinemas french kiss was always covered by some leaves or flowers or the heads of the people kissing, but i have seen quite a number of french kisses in hollywood movies even before my mother got chance to change the channel. But this kiss was something i had not seen, it was a long kiss and i jumped up from my seat checking whether anybody is looking at me or not, nobody is near me, only grandmother is there and she is napping in her room, all my senses were dedicated towards the movements of my grandmother, there was a sense of fear but the excitement i was felt is not definable, I had no idea that the excitement level will be reaching a whole new level after some seconds.

The kissing continued and all of a sudden the big man started pressing her B**BS, my eyes popped out, what the hell is he doing. I thought to myself , but she was enjoying it and kissing continued a bit vigorously, i was starting to turn nervous but it was never before experience and i didnt want to shy away from it, so i was accumulating all my courage, but my courage to watch the video got a sudden pause when she unhooked her bra, PLEASE...dont do it, i cannot watch it, i closed my eyes with my hands and slowly peeked through it, NO, it was out, now i could see her b**bs , my sudden reaction was to close the video, i was sweating and i could hear my heartbeat, i wondered how by brother is watching such dirty videos, i was unable to control myself and went to check on my grandmother, she was having a good nap and was not aware about anything that just happened, oh yes i forgot to tell you, i switched off the speakers even before starting the computer so that my grandma will not hear it.

I made myself calm and recollected the lost courage, and made up my mind to watch that video again, you see born in a typical indian family and watching porn for the first time and that too at home may not sound a big deal to you but for me it was a very big deal for me, i didnt sit down on the chair because my instincts didnt allow me to and the mouse cursor obviously was pointed at the close icon. The video reached the point where i stopped , this time i had a little more courage in looking at the screen, that bloody big man was now pressing and playing with her b**bs and it was not huge, and finally the kissing stopped and i thought i was going to end their, no it was not and the big man took off his shirt and pants, now he was on his undies and she was staring at him, even before i could understand anything she also removed her top and skirt and she was also on her undies, you could not imagine the nervousness i had, my palm was sweating like hell and heart was pounding, i didnt felt erotic at that point, may be i was too much afraid about the consequences, if caught.

And finally the two people removed the only piece of clothing left in their body and i saw the complete nudity of adults for the first time, i looked carefully to explore it to the max , the mouse courser was ready at the close icon, my ears where ready to pick up even the slightest sound in the background and eyes were checking for some movements, i kept on looking at it and something similar to the earlier happened she was licking and sucking a different body part now, which i found much gross then what she was doing earlier. 

Suddenly i heard my grandma calling and i closed that video instantly my mind was completely lost and the whole body was cold, without much thinking i switched off the computer and went from there, i never asked or said anything to my brother about it, neither did i say anything to my friends. But soon i realised, there is much more then that and it is very much enjoyable. Oh my God, it was porn and it was kind a good thing to watch, and a new man was born that day.