My take - Nokia 3310 relaunch

Nokia made all heads turn when they announced their return and surprised everyone with the launch of Nokia 6. Though the phone was released only in China it was making a lot of buzz around the world. Now at MWC17 they announced the comeback of 3310.

new nokia 3310

I am not discussing any details regarding its specs or price which you can check up here  

( http://www.gsmarena.com/nokia_3310_(2017)-8597.php )

Lets discuss the potential market of this phone, how will this phone influence the comman man like you and me.

Positive impact

1) Nostalgia - First and foremost with this phone is obviously the nostalgia we are having with it, for most of us Nokia 3310 was the very first phone we used and some people save it as a piece of history. And there is no limit on how much people will spend to bring back that piece of nostalgia back. This must be the major motivation for Nokia to bring back the old horse back into market. Nokia also wants people to remember the good old days we had with Nokia phones where mobile phones means nokia. The addition of snake is the icing to the cake.

2) A change - There is smartphones all around us, the huge 5 inch screen touch phones are now a part and parcel of everyone's life, food water and mobile is the basic necessity now. From small kids to elderly the smartphone mania has gripped almost everyone of us now. And then comes this phone with flashy colors and small screen, a phone which will fit in out hands without any effort(yes there are feature phones available in market but Nokia is a emotion). The kind of hype and air this phone received will definitely help it sell more.

3) Price and as secondary phone - Its a low cost phone obviously as its having only very basic features, so many people may opt it for their secondary sim, even though dual sim phones are very common these days people may spend some bucks to get this one for sure.

Negative impact

1) Seriously - This new phone have to depend hugely on the nostalgic feeling people will be having seeing it after a long time, but will that be a game changer. Indian market which is one of the booming mobile phone market may not be a easy one for Nokia 3310. The kind of technology mobile phone makers are bringing into their products are astounding, which has in turn increased the features loaded into mid range and budget phones, for 6k or 7k we are offered very advanced and value for money specs. Now how much impact can a feature phone make in this segment is to be watched.

2) Dual sim boom -  These days dual sim phones are a hot seller in budget and mid range segment, this will definitely dent the chances of Nokia 3310 to make a big bang come back into the market. Indians spent some quality time researching about their next phone and will invest money in something which is a alround performer, fortunately we are spoiled with choices these days. Will this basic feature phone interest customers is something which do not need much thinking. But again the market is not predictable.

3) Jio effect - Everyone wants a piece of Jio pie, Jio revolutionized Indian telecom with their out of the world data packages which forced other competitors to follow them. In coming days 4g will be the standered and we will be getting better services for cheap rate. The people who dont own a 4g phone desperately wants a new phone which is jio compatible. In such a scenario 3310 with its snake game will need to shackle huge walls before making a change.

Conclusion

Nokia has a emotional connection with almost all of us, their new phones 6 and 8 has already created huge buzz and people are eagerly waiting for them here. But the new 3310 will find difficult to convince its potential customers. This phone's main purpose according to me was to rekindle the feelings we had with old Nokia and its snake game and to convince people to go for the new and powerful phones they will be launching. And dont forget the publicity they received for revealing the new avatar of this phone. Lets all wait and see how the fate of Nokia will change with its new products, can the defeated emperor regain his kingdom?

THANKS!!

A Firm Decision

It is slightly cold, but all the travelling had made me tired and sweating, train has just arrived in the station and everyone is rushing to get the first bus out from station, prepaid auto rickshaw stand is buzzing, people are waiting in long queue to get an auto. Altogether the station is crowded, and the time is nearing 11:30pm. No one was there to fetch me, and it was impossible for me to get into that crowded bus, so I went near the prepaid auto stand. The unending queue made me think otherwise. I decided to go to the bus stand near the station, hopefully there will be some bus, and the story begins.

Kannur, my native is known for its political history, one of the rapidly progressing districts of Kerala. Kannur railway station is a fairly huge station with people coming and going all the time, the new bus stand constructed to the left of railway station and opposite to old bus stand was a milestone achievement. The old bus stand was nearly forgotten after the new one started functioning. All the buses that started from the new bus stand have to stop at the old stand but the buses which started from the old stand need not go to the new bus stand. A lot of union problems were there during and after the construction of new stand, and I believe its still there, which lead to such a decision by the authorities. The odds favored the old bus stand and the decision was made, I took the right turn after exiting the railway station.

I was alone and tired, even worse was that my phone was dead. The long and boring journey all the way from my college has sucked up all my energy, but the excitement on reaching my hometown after a long gap gave me some rejoice. The busy station opened up to a dark and silent road, without a second thought I started walking towards the old bus stand. The night was really quite and cold, but I was sure in my decision to not take an auto rickshaw. I could see two people walking way ahead of me, that gave me some courage. I was really nervous from inside, but took special care to hide it and acted more like a macho guy. I know this place like back of my hand, has walked through this road infinite number of times, but never alone and that too at night. Each and every shop is closed, and why would it be opened in the middle of night, I tried to answer all my quires by myself and moved on. I have now walked past the vicinity of the lone street light, and my eyes are now cemented to the lane on which I am walking, even god will be unsure of the things lying there, and I walked slowly.

I am sure that everyone will be afraid of stray dogs, it is not the fear of dogs mainly rather it is the fear of injections we have to take after the dog bite. I am very much afraid of those injections and also stray dogs. Now a days  a lot of discussions have been going on in the top level authorities to overcome this stray dog issue. Mass killing of stray dogs was hot debate topic recently. And back to the story, I was praying to god that not even a single dog pop up in front of me( i am an atheist most of the times). The old bus stand was hardly 250 meters from the station but it seemed to be never ending when I started walking. Now I have reached the junction past the petrol bunk, this junction is known by the name of a temple situated there, the faint yellow light coming from the junction street light covered a fair bit of distance and automatically my walking speed was increased. I kept telling myself  'a little more' to curb my nervousness, But by now I have lost sight of the two people who walked ahead of me and some auto rickshaws were flying past me with passengers. No, once you made your decision you have to stick with it, I kept reminding myself that.

Now I have to walk through the underpass which always leaked water from above, and once the rainy season begins you could actually go fishing there. The road literally become pond after a rain or two. This underpass has hosted a lot of protests and dharnas, but nothing really worked for its favor. The leaking drops created a wired sound and it was annoyingly echoed by the walls of the underpass. It was pitch dark inside the underpass, but luckily for me a auto rickshaw was coming from the opposite direction and I managed to get through. All the main frightening points have been crossed and now its just a straight walk till the stand, some street lights on either side of the road provided ample amount of light and I was quite happy with that. It was nearing 12' o clock and I needed a good night sleep very badly. But I was in for a very bad suprize. The old bus stand was closed for some construction work, taring the road I guess. There was not even a single bus. I was shattered, all the courage(for me of course) I have shown went in vain. My calm nature went for a toss, and I am now boiling with anger, anger over myself for making such a poor choice.  But the relieving thing was the presence of some people their who have made my same mistake. I went up to them and asked where to find bus, sadly they didnt had any idea about it. I felt like shit, what a bad situation to be in, now I will have to walk back the same distance to get an auto or I have to walk even further to see whether there is bus or not. I thought for myself, walking further at this point of time will be a stupid decision, but going back and getting an auto will surely dent my self belief. Oh that was very bad situation you dont want yourself to be in,trust me. I made my decision and started to walk back with a stupid face. This time I was not afraid to walk through the dark road instead I was thinking about the foolish decision I made earlier. F*#k Me.

The Grand Old Tree

Sometimes its silly, but most of the times we are very much attached to our surroundings, we will be forced to live in places which we never like, but the nostalgic memories from within us gives us a refreshed feeling, or more precisely a moment of joy.There will be numerous things around us which knowingly or unknowingly gets attached with us, we will never understand its value until its gone.

Kannur, Yes that's my native place, people from Kerala will surely know the importance of Kannur for its political history, a place rich in culture and heritage. But this blog is not about Kannur, rather its about my small house located in Kannur near Valapattanam, an old house, a house which is older than my mother. My grandmother build this house after a long hard struggle, she always shared the troubles she had faced financially and mentally to construct this small yet strong house. I always used to wonder about her will power, she was a rock solid women inside and still maintained a kind posture. Circumstance changes a person completely, that must be the thing with her. But no, this blog is also not about my grandmother, My grandmother requires more then just a reference here and there. This blog is about a grand old jack fruit tree. Yes, even jackfruit trees can inspire you to write blogs, I am not sure how old that tree is, but I am sure that it has fed a lot of generations.

The house in which I grew was not the most financially stable house, we had our own share of troubles to make our ends meet. But I have no right to complain about my past, as all of those who took care of me has given me more than I deserved. Our house was a delightful place, we are all attached to that place where we grow up, no matter how the conditions are, we will  never be able to forget the tiny memories associated with it. There were a lot of trees in my backyard, but a jackfruit tree which stood in the front of my house was something special. As a kid I never liked the taste, smell or even the look of jackfruits, I found it very ugly and fat, we even mock people calling them "chakka" (the malayalam name of jack fruit). And I was not fond of that tree, It was always full of ants which when bites, Oh my god... the pain is more then what i could explain, and when jackfruits start to fall from tree, GROSS it was a big sticky and stingy mess, moreover it caused a serious problem while playing badminton, once the shuttle cock get stuck in one of its branches and we had to stop our play. 

 

                                                                                                                                                              

But others in the house was very much in love for this tree which i never understood, everyone except me like to eat ripe jack fruits like crazy, my mother, brother , aunt, uncle even my neighbours came running for it. But I never found it as something special. Now I wish I had eaten it  a lot those days, my grand mother used to make jack fruit jam which I am very much fond of these days. But I always kept a blind eye towards everything which had a jack in it, foolish me. 

The history as I said earlier associated with that tree and my family is deep rooted, my mother has told me many stories of how they have survived for days only eating the jackfruits. They trust this tree, they keep believing that this tree will provide them with food, which sounds foolish, but it is the truth. All my relatives living in different places always made sure that they eat this fruit whenever they came to my house, Obviously they came during their vacation but still they had that super craze to have some of it. People like me are those 'proud of nothing' type, we always find problems, issues with each and everything around us, and desire for something which we never had, I liked almost all the other fruits and simply ignored the one which is in front of me.

My grand mother died and the complete scenario changed, I was in college during that time and my brother was working in Mumbai. My mother was alone there so we moved into Vallikav Kollam, near my college, I surely missed my native but little did I know that I was going to miss that stupid tree, you get the irony right. Sometimes its like that, you simply dont require any real reason to miss something. Now I have started eating jackfruits from here in vallikav, and i really regret my decision of not eating that till now, All these years when we had plenty of ripe fleshy and juicy fruits, I ignored it and craved for something which was not there for the taking, Now after leaving that place and most probably for a very long period, I have developed a deep desire to eat that fruit.

I have learned an important lesson from this, that one should be able to find content with whatever he is having, I might not be able to implement this completely, but I will certainly remember this lesson whenever I turn greedy for something which I dont have. That tree certainly have some connection with our family, generations after generations it keeps on attaching the missing links of the family together and teaching us some important life lessons. Most of us keep trying to become someone or something which we are not, and shy away from the reality, but nature will keep on providing us with enough examples to look into, it must be our duty to understand it before too late.

Last Bench Love - 2

Before starting i would like to apologize to everyone for my grammatical and spelling mistakes in the previous post, and special thanks to everyone who pointed out the mistakes. I will try my best to keep it error free.

'Why are you disturbing her?' the angry face of my class teacher confused me very much, she kept on talking,  'dont stand there looking like an idiot, now give me an answer', the whole staff room turned towards me staring hard. 

The days started to become eventful, slight drizzle has now changed to heavy downpour, stagnant water here and there, nobody would have liked to get out in such a heavy rain, but my usual laziness have got a sudden hit, i may not be super exited to go to class, but i was never late to get the first bus to school, there was now a special joy in reaching the class.

Now let me give you a slight intro about her, a small girl with even smaller face, her shining locks were always kept tied without allowing it to breath fresh air, eyes big and always opened, but her main attraction  was the beautiful smile she had, she was never stingy in smiling, maybe a tad too much of smile, but she is beautiful in her own way and i never found her innocent smile so appealing till then, but the major issue for me was her close friend(a fat bi**h), her friend was always with her, and she was so annoying, she had a great influence on her decisions, and that was even more annoying, but a challenge is what we all like, isnt it. For me the hard part was to impress her fat friend, which was almost impossible, but i never lost hope in doing so.

Now that a slight change to my character was visibly clear to everyone, many of my teachers started to mention my name in class, telling me that i have changed a lot and should focus on studies and nothing else, to be true i actually liked teachers saying that because i always wanted to change my image of being a nerd, most importantly i was getting the much needed attention of the class and she started to notice me, she never took any interest in talking with me, but she started to smile whenever she saw me, and i will never be able to describe my happiness in words of seeing her smile. Till then i believed that having a girlfriend or even a lover is only to be a cool dude, and it has is nothing to do with your future life, marriage, children, once you have completed your school everyone will part ways and someone new will come into your life or atleast in your thoughts, but her smile has changed my concept of love, and i am very much greatful to her for that, she taught me an important lesson of life, it is better to be loved and lost than never to be loved at all.

One day i accidentally told my other friends about her, and that turned out to be a very bad accident afterall, they told me to go and tell her about it, and started to urge me for doing that, if they had told me do so ealier, i would have done it without any hesitation, but now the whole scenario has changed and i lacked courage to do so, now i was even afraid to stare at her anytime during class, as my friends would notice it. Some of the girls already had their doubt and my friends helped them to solve the mystery, and they started to give me that sarcastic smile, which i hated the most. I was afraid about the kind of reaction she will be having after hearing such things from her friends. Next day, i didnt found the usual smile on her face and her fat friend was staring at me like i was a criminal, so the conclusions were made pretty easily and i was completely shattered. During break time her friend came to me and told that she doesnt love me and if her mother came to know about it then that will be her end, i was completely shocked, she was looking at me from a distance and was very nervous, i lost my words and only stared at her.

My friends being what they are became active on hearing this from her friend and started to make fun of her and her friend openly during class and interval time, to be frank i enjoyed that to a little extend where her fat friend was made fun of, even today i believe that it is her master brain that has worked against me, but the joke started to turn serious, one day i saw her cry in class, and others girls were sitting next to her, one girl came to me and told that she is very upset and i am the reason for it, my friends are making fun of her and she was not taking it well, that really made me feel bad, but i didnt asked my friends about it, after seeing her cry they also stopped it i think. Then after that incident everything took a U-turn, she looked sad all the time, and her beautiful smile was also missing, the girls in my class also started to isolate me. My friends stood by me all the time, and they had a lot of plans to get things back on track,though nothing was applicable in real life.

One day i decided to go and meet her in her house, whatever be the consequence, I had a rough idea about where her house is, but was not quite sure, still my gut feeling was to go meet her and say sorry, this decision came out of desperation, +1 classes had concluded, vacation classes will start within two weeks or so, my main aim was to build back the old friendship, and to see her smile again, It took me a lot of time to decide on whether to go or not, for a person like me it was a very big issue, simply because i had never visited a girlfriend's house before, but i was sure about one thing if i am going i will be going alone and not with my friends, as she did not like my friends too much, i reached her place but had no idea about her house, after calling one girl i got her address and moved towards her house, you cannot image the tension i had while going to meet her, my palms were leaking water, heart was pumping more than it ever had, it is impossible for me to explain that situation, i reached in front of her gate, my mind was completely unsure about what to do next, NO, my courage has cheated me once again, i cannot do it, i simply cant, i walked forward without even looking back, my eyes started to fill up, but i tried to control my emotions to the max, i will never be able to talk to her again, i said to myself and returned home.

Vacation classes commenced and it was really boring, she was also there and she looked happy, i could see her smile again, but she was not ready to talk or even to look at me, the next day i was called into the staff room by my teacher and she had a lot of questions for me, she came to know about all those stuff and was really angry with me, i wondered how she knew things that happened a month ago, but the real suprize was not that, it was her mother who told my teacher about all those things, i was shocked and frightened to hear that, she told everything to her mother, i could not believe that, after a lot of harassment teacher told me stay away from her and to concentrate on studies in a soothing manner. 2 months passed and we didnt talked or even looked at each other, then we had our school tour and so on, i am not explaining each and every incident, then this story will never come to an end, lot of days passed since that staffroom issue and every one seemed to forget about it, all my friends had a smooth relationship with their girlfriend, and they always looked happy while talking about them, i tried my best to remain sarcastic while talking about her, my ego of not having a girlfriend has gone, maybe i was too much proud of my looks that i thought girls will fly and come to me, all those negative thoughts have slowly started to go, i was obviously sad, but there was some satisfaction, as days passed it was time for model exams, and everyone was terrified about the final exams, all my friends came to my home for combined study and that was real fun.

As said earlier i am not explaining everything, as it may sound boring, but the real twist in the tale happened during the second model exam, she talked to me, she told me all the best for the exams and study hard along with her pretty smile, my reaction was completely stupid, i walked away without telling anything in reply, even today i dont know why i did that, my mind was completely lost and wandering, our exam will start on 14th february , physics lab exam. I was not bothered about the exam or viva, all the time i was culminating my courage to finally say to her what i feel on the day of love, i bought a card and scribbled something on it, and was completely prepared to face any challenge, this is the last chance, after school i may never be able to see her again, i didnt even have her number,( actually i had her num but most of the time it was with her mom), so after setting my mind ready for it, i went ahead,  you see i am having a nerd history so i had obviously prepared for the exam, but more than that i was feeling determined and confident, so exam turned out to be easy for me. After exam i waited for her on the staircase, i thought that would be romantic enough for her, she has to go through that stairs after completing the exam so it had dual pourpose. And finally i saw her coming down the stairs, her fat friend was also with her, so i requested her to talk with me in private, her friend moved away and we got our own space for the first time, i didnt felt any kind of nervousness and gifted her the card, and said 'I LOVE YOU, if i didnt say it now then i will never be able to say it another time, you can either like me or not but i will never be able to forget you as you are my first love', her eyes sprang out from their sockets, she started to sweat i think, but kept staring into my eyes without saying a word, she was searching for words to give a reply, i could read it out from her face, she started to walk away without uttering a word, and i kept staring at her from behind, but didnt asked her to stop.

I did expect such a behavior from her, so it did not had much effect on me, but my proposal was completely out of the blue and she was really shocked, the story did continue but unfortunately it didnt ended well, all of us had moved on since then, but the feel of first love is still within me, and it will always remain in me, we did talk after that, but nothing positive happened, this last bench love has given me a lot of memories to cherish, hopefully some day i will also find my true love.

Last Bench Love

The day is February 14th 2012, the courage has finally kicked in and i decided to go with my guts. Not only the butterflies, i could sense every living creatures crawling inside my tummy, kind of a sick feeling, but this is the final option and the only option in front of me. The decision has being made and that is to reveal my LOVE for her.

The story actually started in june 2010, when i joined for higher secondary education in Sreepuram ICSE english medium school, the school name might give me a standred that's why i am specifying it perticularly, unlike others who ran here and there to join some state syllabus school for scoring more and to get good rank in entrance exam, i was calm and joined the same school where i completed my my SSLC. Later my friends who left the school came back to there itself and that is a different story altogether, lets stick with the original story. After admitting myself in the same school, i was neither happy nor sad but i was determined to change my behavior of being a nerd sitting in the front bench.

Oh yes, i was a total nerd at those times, much worse than what i am now( self assessment), I dont remember a single day where i didnt talk something which is not related to science or maths. Unfortunately being a nerd means no girlfriends, obviously they see nerds as a potential threat to their general knowledge and exam score. So we where always made fun of behind our back, i used the term 'we' to acknowledge the nerds and to highlight their problems. But the real problem was my inability to talk with girls and that was a real issue with me. So this is the background till my 10th standered, and i was determined to change it at any cause, and there starts my story.

The rainy season has not completely taken over, only a slight drizzle here and then, but the monsoon effect has already started. The same feeling of laziness all these years to go to school in the cold rainy mornings, but for me its a new beginning, the transformation has to start from that very day, or atleast try to transform. Many of my friends has left the school in search of 'marks' and the remaining few have chosen biology stream, leaving me isolated in the engineering stream. 7 girls and 22 boys that was our class. I was a total stranger in that class even though i have seen most of the boys and girls before in that school, and i was the shortest kid in that class which made me even more isolated, all my plans of transformation and regeneration went into water after seeing that class, and i never bothered to look towards the girls side, Most of the other kids knew each other and they already made bench mates and i was staring at the blackboard feeling numb and lonely. I deliberately chose the last bench to feel what its like to study from there, but i was asked to move front due to my height. I am destined to be a nerd and even the universe is supporting that, my sense of loneliness was reaching its maximum and my eyes filled up for no reason. And my bench mate was similar to me short, nerd and lonely, but he enjoyed the front bench and liked to answer questions before it was even asked.

Days passed nothing has really changed, i was getting used to it slowly, and then one incident happened, our english teacher told us to prepare for a debate, the following week, and it will be a group exercise. A guy named Albert was my team mate and he was quite nice towards me, never showed any hesitation in talking with me and never ignored my opinions, he was my bridge from my lonely world to my social world, i never had any good relations with my neighborhood kids, so basically he was my only non nerd friend, i made friendship with other guys in the class through him and to my suprize none of them were judgmental at all, it was my inferiority complex all the time and i never tried to believe against it. Slowly the wind started to change its direction, and it was really difficult for me to change  from being studious to being stupidous, But that is a necessary requirement to be in a cool kids club, now a days you have to smoke pot or drink liquor to be in that group, lucky for me i had to only skip my homework for being COOL, the whole world started to change for me, even the way i look at things changed. But i enjoyed every bit and the whole system became eventful. A bunch of friends can really change you inside out.

Time will fly when we start to enjoy life, and same happened with me, and a new problem came up with that, the Love Story, every boy like to hear his name linked with some beautiful looking girl, and most of my friends linked themselves with some girl or the other and i was left alone in the gang. Now my ego started to work, and i was in search of a girl with whom i can link myself, i had some names in my mind, but those girls were far out of my reach, the very next day i went to class and started observing the girls of my class, i am not saying that i never talked to them before, i surely did, but i actually started observing them from that day onwards, none of them inspired or excited my feelings, most of them looked blunt and lifeless, but i was not to give up and picked the best among the lot and started staring at her intentionally in front of my friends so that they could just cook up the story for me, neither my friends noticed nor that girl, my ego kept on growing of not having a so called girlfriend to chat with. And finally i decided to tell Albert about this girl issue i was facing, but the way i presented the issue to him was a bit different, i told him that i love her and i am afraid to tell her about it, he was shocked to hear that, but as a loyal friend he kept that a secret and started giving me tips on how to tackle this, he never said anything to other guys because he believed that they will tell this to her immediately and will spoil the whole plan of me proposing her.

To my suprize, the way i look at that girl completely changed after some days,(the name of the girl will not be disclosed), some feelings started to grow inside my heart for that girl, and most surprisingly she started to look more beautiful day after day, you see guys i am no romeo to give lectures on love, but this incident made me believe that there is something called love  and my friends where not lying about it when they share their love stories, i never tried to talk with her for she was a silent girl who barely made any kind of noise, unlike other girls in the class who always made a hell of noise, she simply sat listening to them giving a sweet smile in response, and the worst part was that she never talked with boys, which made my feelings even stronger towards her, i made friends with all the other girls in the class just to get information about her, without her knowledge, that was a very difficult job, girls are good in making stories and to gossip it within their friend circle, so i had to be extra careful of not to reveal anything to them, but that plan failed miserably, those girls were smarter than i thought,but my feelings for her never changed  and it only kept on growing. What a development from being a nerd to being a lover boy, at some stage i even felt proud of myself, like that was some great achievement.

To be continued...
  

oh my GOD!! its PORN

Heart was beating like a drum, i was not sure what to do with it, my hands shivered and eyes where scanning the surroundings. Oh my GOD!!! its porn. 

After a long pleading and crying we had a desktop pc in our home, my elder brother had greater control over it as it was bought more for his purpose then mine, but i had my own quality time with it. Desktop at those times were considered as a wealth icon, and as kids we used to make stories about it tell our friends, everyone will be thrilled and wonderstruk when i finish my cooked up computer stories. But in reality we did not had any internet connection and computer was used only to play some flash games and watch some videos, even then i was always asked to stay away from the computer by my brother, as a RESPONSIBLE sibling i was always interested in finding his faults and presenting it to my mother, and for that reason we were always fighting, hmm... good memories of those times, On one fine day every one was out especially my BRO, only grandmother and myself where there, without wasting any time, i switched on the computer and started sneaking into the files which he has saved, there was a lot of installer files and songs. But something inside me was telling me to keep on digging files, maybe its my "responsible" nature which pushed me to look deep into folders. While searching i found a folder which was having a 'new folder' and my powerpoint and word files which were new and nothing written in it. now this is something to check. I started to dig into it, folder after folder somewhere down i finally found three video files, 

"MILK SHAKE" that was the name of the video file and i was not at all expecting what i was about to see. Let me tell you this was my first experience with porn and the maximum nudity i ever saw till then was navel of actresses during the dance sequence, even that was rare as my mother used to switch channels when something like that came up, so according to me my life was going to whole new dimension of nudity after i saw that video.

Without much hesitation i clicked on the video and it started playing, nice start to the video a young and beautiful girl was smiling and she was acting shy while the camera man was teasing her and touching her here and there, I had my own doubts, it was not like any other videos which i seen in computer or on cd, it was not having that filmy touch, rather it was having the effect of indian tv serial while watching. Then her name came on the screen , i dont remember her name but she was so damn good looking and cute, You see maybe because i was nearing puberty, i was feeling something odd with that girl, not odd in a bad way, but in a very pleasant way. 

All of a sudden she started licking the fingers of the cameraman, and she seems to enjoy it, i found it very gross, as that person was having full hair on his fingers and it looked kind of dirty, she kept on doing that and suddenly a person entered into the room, not my room, the room in the video where the girl was having fun, a big white man with huge muscles and a black cooling glass. he was also smiling towards the cameraman and cameraman told something back to him and his smile turned to laughter. The video was getting interesting , the big man sat next to her and started smiling at her, she stopped sucking the fingers of the cameraman and planted a big smile on her face, the big man was talking to her and her reply was only "Hmm....Hm..Hm...Hmmmm...". 

Suddenly, something happened, the big man kissed the girl on her lips, usually in indian cinemas french kiss was always covered by some leaves or flowers or the heads of the people kissing, but i have seen quite a number of french kisses in hollywood movies even before my mother got chance to change the channel. But this kiss was something i had not seen, it was a long kiss and i jumped up from my seat checking whether anybody is looking at me or not, nobody is near me, only grandmother is there and she is napping in her room, all my senses were dedicated towards the movements of my grandmother, there was a sense of fear but the excitement i was felt is not definable, I had no idea that the excitement level will be reaching a whole new level after some seconds.

The kissing continued and all of a sudden the big man started pressing her B**BS, my eyes popped out, what the hell is he doing. I thought to myself , but she was enjoying it and kissing continued a bit vigorously, i was starting to turn nervous but it was never before experience and i didnt want to shy away from it, so i was accumulating all my courage, but my courage to watch the video got a sudden pause when she unhooked her bra, PLEASE...dont do it, i cannot watch it, i closed my eyes with my hands and slowly peeked through it, NO, it was out, now i could see her b**bs , my sudden reaction was to close the video, i was sweating and i could hear my heartbeat, i wondered how by brother is watching such dirty videos, i was unable to control myself and went to check on my grandmother, she was having a good nap and was not aware about anything that just happened, oh yes i forgot to tell you, i switched off the speakers even before starting the computer so that my grandma will not hear it.

I made myself calm and recollected the lost courage, and made up my mind to watch that video again, you see born in a typical indian family and watching porn for the first time and that too at home may not sound a big deal to you but for me it was a very big deal for me, i didnt sit down on the chair because my instincts didnt allow me to and the mouse cursor obviously was pointed at the close icon. The video reached the point where i stopped , this time i had a little more courage in looking at the screen, that bloody big man was now pressing and playing with her b**bs and it was not huge, and finally the kissing stopped and i thought i was going to end their, no it was not and the big man took off his shirt and pants, now he was on his undies and she was staring at him, even before i could understand anything she also removed her top and skirt and she was also on her undies, you could not imagine the nervousness i had, my palm was sweating like hell and heart was pounding, i didnt felt erotic at that point, may be i was too much afraid about the consequences, if caught.

And finally the two people removed the only piece of clothing left in their body and i saw the complete nudity of adults for the first time, i looked carefully to explore it to the max , the mouse courser was ready at the close icon, my ears where ready to pick up even the slightest sound in the background and eyes were checking for some movements, i kept on looking at it and something similar to the earlier happened she was licking and sucking a different body part now, which i found much gross then what she was doing earlier. 

Suddenly i heard my grandma calling and i closed that video instantly my mind was completely lost and the whole body was cold, without much thinking i switched off the computer and went from there, i never asked or said anything to my brother about it, neither did i say anything to my friends. But soon i realised, there is much more then that and it is very much enjoyable. Oh my God, it was porn and it was kind a good thing to watch, and a new man was born that day.